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[aphasiacartist]

thank you

i know you have all the limbs a person is supposed to have and you do ballet so maybe the idea of being in a wheelchair is scary to you or something. but theres no shame in it, ok/

[ She's trying to help, at least. She may not know all that much about Natasha, but Rin certainly understands the problems that Emi has with being confined to a wheelchair.

Hopefully there's some overlap there, so her advice can be at least somewhat applicable. ]

[outstandingbalance]

Guess I'm not used to accepting help for things.

[aphasiacartist]

well im not used to not getting help with things
not everything of course. but some stuff.
anyway i dont think it means your weak or anything if that makes you feel better about getting it


also can i ask you a question/

[outstandingbalance]

Sure. Ask away.

[She didn't promise she'd answer it, but Rin was free to ask.]

What's on your mind?

[aphasiacartist]

were you ok being a shade
i mean of course you werent ok. things arent ok in this place

i guess what im trying to ask is how did you deal with being one


because its rlly hard for me sometimes
a lot of the time actually
i miss beign solid

[outstandingbalance]

That's a hard question.

It's not something I liked, or I'd call easy. Luckily, I didn't have to feed much.

But I can see why you'd have trouble with that...

I don't know if it's better or worse than spider.

[aphasiacartist]

im not any good at it
my concentration keeps slipping and i keep dropping things
painting is so hard. i get rlly into it and then my paintbrush slips thru m t toes

i dropped my pencil twice typing this so far.
i hate it. i hate being like this
i wish i was still a goblin. or a human

[Note that 'goblin' came to mind before 'human.' That may or may not be a tell.]

im scared to go to the horse guy in the woods though

[outstandingbalance]

[Oh, she did notice.]

If you're not comfortable being a shade... human might be a little far, but you could still be something you're more comfortable with.

What has you worried?

[aphasiacartist]

about a month before you got here on the mountain i tried to buy a change from him and i ended up as a mermaid. and not just any mermaid i was the worst kind of mermaid

im scared if i try to get another one ill lose my legs again. or my feet. but permanently instead of just for a month/
what if i end up as a wendigo and i cant pick anything up with my stupid deer heeves
or worse. a snake or a spider.

[A brief pause, and then:]

um
no offense

[outstandingbalance]

None taken.

So you can't ask for something specific? Seems like if you're paying for a service, it shouldn't be such a crap shoot.

[But then maybe that's the nature of the beast in this case.]

Maybe there's another way. The mountain changed you once, even if it wasn't permanent. Could be there are other ways to change.

[aphasiacartist]

you can ask if you want to
that doesnt mean thats what youll change into though. people ask for stuff from him all the time and they get entirely different stuff

[She honestly isn't sure if it's his fault or if magic is just a gamble at best. Either way, she's afraid to put her legs on the line.]

do you think the mountain could do it again/

[outstandingbalance]

[Natasha has looked into the way people spend those coins a little, but she hadn't heard the success rate. Osborn had certainly been able to buy his town. She knew she there were those who had changed, at least.

If there were a failure rate, that explained why everyone wasn't doing it.]

I don't know. Not right now.

I don't know if it would even be worth trying again, considering the way the Fog God pushed back last time.

<circusbrat>

[dickbats]

OK, spiderlady. Better now than when we're crowing extra body parts. One real movie, with real popcorn and real dinner.

Pick you up at six?

<latrodectus>

[outstandingbalance]

I remember making that deal. Doesn't seem right to back out now.

Meet you at the theater instead?

<circusbrat>

[dickbats]

A gentleman wouldn't make a lady escort herself unattended when her mobility is in question.

<latrodectus>

[outstandingbalance]

You're still worried about that? I've been getting around just fine on my own.

Guess I'm not much of a lady.

<circusbrat>

[dickbats]

Well give it a shot.

Maybe you'll like it if you try it.

<latrodectus>

[outstandingbalance]

Yeah? What did you have in mind? Pushing around a chair? Doesn't sound like much of a date.

<circusbrat>

[dickbats]

Sounds like you don't have a very high opinion of the differently abled.

There's plenty of ways to have a date like that.

<latrodectus>

[outstandingbalance]

I'm not exactly differently abled, Dick.

<circusbrat>

[dickbats]

You're not exactly normal either.

<latrodectus>

[outstandingbalance]

I never have been. And it's only going to get worse.

<circusbrat>

[dickbats]

So give yourself a day. Let someone take care of you for a change.

<latrodectus>

[outstandingbalance]

[Funny enough, he isn't the first one to give her this type of argument since her network post.]

What if I think you're just trying to get my address?

<circusbrat>

[dickbats]

Then I'd call you silly for thinking I don't already know it.