[Natasha doesn't have an immediate answer for that. His experience and his frame of reference are too different from her own, and she doesn't want to make an argument here.
It's not like she thinks she'd be in the right. Not morally, anyway. She comes from a world where there always are and always have been people above the law—people who acted in the names of governments or ideals, people who got their hands dirty so that other people could believe they lived in a simpler world than they really did.
But she wants to be honest with him, in her way. After a few beats, she finally responds.]
I respect your clarity.
[That's a particularly fine hair to split, isn't it?]
It doesn't sound like a very easy road you picked. I'm not sure I could do what I do if I thought that way—or what you do.
[Absolutely not what she does. What she does leaves a lot of bodies.]
Beating yourself up like this, though—there's not always a right answer, Matt. All the guilt in the world never brought back the dead. It just makes it harder to sleep at night.
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It's not like she thinks she'd be in the right. Not morally, anyway. She comes from a world where there always are and always have been people above the law—people who acted in the names of governments or ideals, people who got their hands dirty so that other people could believe they lived in a simpler world than they really did.
But she wants to be honest with him, in her way. After a few beats, she finally responds.]
I respect your clarity.
[That's a particularly fine hair to split, isn't it?]
It doesn't sound like a very easy road you picked. I'm not sure I could do what I do if I thought that way—or what you do.
[Absolutely not what she does. What she does leaves a lot of bodies.]
Beating yourself up like this, though—there's not always a right answer, Matt. All the guilt in the world never brought back the dead. It just makes it harder to sleep at night.