TRP Stats & Permissions
Aug. 13th, 2023 01:11 pmOOC PREFERENCES
CONTACT METHOD:
sarosaron
THREAD-JACKING: Ask first, but probably.
FOURTH WALLING / CANON PUNCTURE: Ask first, but also probably.
BACKTAGGING: Sure, as necessary.
AVOIDED TOPICS: Ehhhh.
PREFERRED GENDER PRONOUN: She/Her
IC CHARACTERISTICS
CURRENT CANON POINT: Avengers: Endgame
PHYSICAL DESCRIPTION: Natasha is currently still sporting her accidental ombre.
DEMEANOR: Reserved, if not otherwise stated.
ABILITIES: Superskilled, supercompetent superspy, but no actual superpowers.
MEDICAL INFORMATION: Some scarring. Otherwise in good health.
OFFENSIVE SUBJECTS: Ehhh.
OTHER: Drift Fleet CRAU
IC PERMISSIONS
MENTAL: Ask before using any mind reading/mind control powers. Natasha's not a fan, and while I'm not a hard no, I'd like some OOC communication.
MIMICRY: You do you.
VIOLENCE: I am okay with violence, but talk to me about anything more serious than sparring before hand. We'll figure out how things need to go.
MAGIC: Natasha has no magic. If you want to use magic on her, ask first but I'm open to it.
DEBATE: Argue away, though she may walk off if she's not feeling it.
OTHER / NOTES: When in doubt, I like talking. If you want to do something, let's talk!
CONTACT METHOD:
THREAD-JACKING: Ask first, but probably.
FOURTH WALLING / CANON PUNCTURE: Ask first, but also probably.
BACKTAGGING: Sure, as necessary.
AVOIDED TOPICS: Ehhhh.
PREFERRED GENDER PRONOUN: She/Her
IC CHARACTERISTICS
CURRENT CANON POINT: Avengers: Endgame
PHYSICAL DESCRIPTION: Natasha is currently still sporting her accidental ombre.
DEMEANOR: Reserved, if not otherwise stated.
ABILITIES: Superskilled, supercompetent superspy, but no actual superpowers.
MEDICAL INFORMATION: Some scarring. Otherwise in good health.
OFFENSIVE SUBJECTS: Ehhh.
OTHER: Drift Fleet CRAU
IC PERMISSIONS
MENTAL: Ask before using any mind reading/mind control powers. Natasha's not a fan, and while I'm not a hard no, I'd like some OOC communication.
MIMICRY: You do you.
VIOLENCE: I am okay with violence, but talk to me about anything more serious than sparring before hand. We'll figure out how things need to go.
MAGIC: Natasha has no magic. If you want to use magic on her, ask first but I'm open to it.
DEBATE: Argue away, though she may walk off if she's not feeling it.
OTHER / NOTES: When in doubt, I like talking. If you want to do something, let's talk!
TRP Application
Aug. 12th, 2019 12:51 pmOUT OF CHARACTER:
Name/Handle: Saro
Contact:
sarosaron
Other characters: N
Participated in DF endgame: Y
IN-CHARACTER:
Character name: Natasha Romanoff/Black Widow
Character journal:
outstandingbalance
Series name: Marvel Cinematic Universe
Canon notes: Natasha opted to stay after Drift Fleet, a choice informed by her recent Avengers: Endgame canon update. For Natasha, Drift Fleet ended about three months ago, and since then she’s been having an unofficial, informal honeymoon with Winter, the DFAU version of Bucky Barnes.
Species: Human
Age: Late 30s.
Arrival Condition: Alive and uninjured.
History: At first blush, Natasha’s time in Drift Fleet hasn’t changed overtly, and she is deeply still the same character she was in canon. That doesn’t mean nothing is different. Natasha has always had an acute awareness of the flow of information, but her experience in Drift Fleet, where her canon mates might remember the same events as her at wildly different time if at all, has led her to play information close to the vest when she can even with most of her close teammates. It’s less to do with a desire for secrecy specifically than the fact her last two canon updates included incredibly traumatic information and she’s seen the way new information can tear the group apart, especially when people who don’t have first hand experience of what happened start devoting their mental and emotional energy to those “future” conflicts. In some ways that’s led to her isolating herself emotionally. It’s also led to her being proactive about comforting people about things that affect her more closely than them, including her own canon death.
The largest exception to this also represents the other biggest development in Drift Fleet. After months and months of dancing around the issue, Natasha formed a close romantic relationship with the Winter version of Bucky Barnes. The relationship started as a sort of alliance, then developed through shared experience and flirting, and finally came to a head after calibrations left Natasha in a particularly vulnerable emotional state. Their relationship became very strong, and a sort of emotional touchstone for Natasha, and her greatest source of emotional support.
Personality: Outwardly, Natasha’s is a reserved, pragmatic woman who prefers to try to keep a cool head and a sense of perspective and not let her emotions cloud her judgment. While this makes her valuable in dangerous, high pressure situations it also means she is sometimes willing to make compromises sacrifice her personal comfort or happiness. Given the choice between the mission and her own physical or emotional wellbeing, she will always choose the mission.
Her sense of humor tends to be dry, occasionally flirtatious, and is often used as a deflection mechanism to turn attention away from her actual opinions, emotions or history. She also often uses humor as a coping mechanism when faced with a grim situation.
Despite her generally cool demeanor, Natasha cares deeply about her friends and when someone earns her trust and offers her theirs, she will do everything within her power to deserve it. Natasha has an impulse to do the right thing both as a way to make up for her past misdeeds and for the people who believed in her ability to be better. She wants to be the person her found family believe she has the potential to be. She is a person who is made better with the support of the people around her.
The events of Infinity War and Endgame have left Natasha somewhat more brittle and intense, even with the additional support she’s received in Drift Fleet.
Pets: None.
Abilities: Natasha has no superhuman abilities, but she is an expert spy and assassin, with a skillset to match: she’s an except martial artist and marksman, speaks multiple languages, is skilled in infiltration and interrogation, and she’s a better than competent hacker.
Personal Item: Utility knife she bought in Drift Fleet.
Drift Fleet Evidence: Natasha was in the last Drift Fleet AC round.
Name/Handle: Saro
Contact:
Other characters: N
Participated in DF endgame: Y
IN-CHARACTER:
Character name: Natasha Romanoff/Black Widow
Character journal:
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Series name: Marvel Cinematic Universe
Canon notes: Natasha opted to stay after Drift Fleet, a choice informed by her recent Avengers: Endgame canon update. For Natasha, Drift Fleet ended about three months ago, and since then she’s been having an unofficial, informal honeymoon with Winter, the DFAU version of Bucky Barnes.
Species: Human
Age: Late 30s.
Arrival Condition: Alive and uninjured.
History: At first blush, Natasha’s time in Drift Fleet hasn’t changed overtly, and she is deeply still the same character she was in canon. That doesn’t mean nothing is different. Natasha has always had an acute awareness of the flow of information, but her experience in Drift Fleet, where her canon mates might remember the same events as her at wildly different time if at all, has led her to play information close to the vest when she can even with most of her close teammates. It’s less to do with a desire for secrecy specifically than the fact her last two canon updates included incredibly traumatic information and she’s seen the way new information can tear the group apart, especially when people who don’t have first hand experience of what happened start devoting their mental and emotional energy to those “future” conflicts. In some ways that’s led to her isolating herself emotionally. It’s also led to her being proactive about comforting people about things that affect her more closely than them, including her own canon death.
The largest exception to this also represents the other biggest development in Drift Fleet. After months and months of dancing around the issue, Natasha formed a close romantic relationship with the Winter version of Bucky Barnes. The relationship started as a sort of alliance, then developed through shared experience and flirting, and finally came to a head after calibrations left Natasha in a particularly vulnerable emotional state. Their relationship became very strong, and a sort of emotional touchstone for Natasha, and her greatest source of emotional support.
Personality: Outwardly, Natasha’s is a reserved, pragmatic woman who prefers to try to keep a cool head and a sense of perspective and not let her emotions cloud her judgment. While this makes her valuable in dangerous, high pressure situations it also means she is sometimes willing to make compromises sacrifice her personal comfort or happiness. Given the choice between the mission and her own physical or emotional wellbeing, she will always choose the mission.
Her sense of humor tends to be dry, occasionally flirtatious, and is often used as a deflection mechanism to turn attention away from her actual opinions, emotions or history. She also often uses humor as a coping mechanism when faced with a grim situation.
Despite her generally cool demeanor, Natasha cares deeply about her friends and when someone earns her trust and offers her theirs, she will do everything within her power to deserve it. Natasha has an impulse to do the right thing both as a way to make up for her past misdeeds and for the people who believed in her ability to be better. She wants to be the person her found family believe she has the potential to be. She is a person who is made better with the support of the people around her.
The events of Infinity War and Endgame have left Natasha somewhat more brittle and intense, even with the additional support she’s received in Drift Fleet.
Pets: None.
Abilities: Natasha has no superhuman abilities, but she is an expert spy and assassin, with a skillset to match: she’s an except martial artist and marksman, speaks multiple languages, is skilled in infiltration and interrogation, and she’s a better than competent hacker.
Personal Item: Utility knife she bought in Drift Fleet.
Drift Fleet Evidence: Natasha was in the last Drift Fleet AC round.
Underground Stats & Permisions
Mar. 6th, 2016 09:47 amMCU

OOC permissions
Backtagging: Sure!
Threadhopping: Probably, but ask first just in case.
Offensive subjects: None.
IC information
Species: Vampire
Role/Faction: Redbright Institute Outreach Group
Strength: 3 (2 while she's going vampire vegan)
Magic: 1
Friends/Allies: Not as many as she can use
Enemies: She's trying not to make them at the moment, but she sure left an angry vampire nest back in Russia
Relationship status: Single, open to casual relationships but not looking for anything serious or committed currently (So DTF?)
Notable physical characteristics: Natasha is very comfortable and confident in her own skin. She knows what she is and what she's capable of, and no matter what else is going on in her head, she's actually very at peace with her body. There's a sense of reserve and control about her most times, and her movements and physical reactions can sometimes seem a little too smooth. While not an ancient, her self-contained attitude and air of maturity often does let on that she's older than she looks. Unless otherwise noted she speaks with a Russian accent, though her English is clear and fluent.
Notable magical characteristics: Vampire, currently feeding on animal blood.
Offensive subjects: None, really.
Warnings: No blanket warnings, but pick physical fights a your own risk.
IC permissions
General physical violence: Sure, no permission required for minor violence.
Injuring this character: Sure to anything a vampire would be able to heal quickly, ask first for maiming or anything wood/silver related.
Torturing this character: Ask first. This would have to be planned and agreed to in advance.
Killing this character: Probably not, but if you have plot ideas feel free to bring them up.
Mental/emotional torment: Sure, but let's talk first.
Physical intimacy: Go for it. I can't promise the answer will be yes, but Natasha's a grown woman with needs and she could use the distraction.
Romance: If it happens, it happens.
Using magic on this character: Ask first; I'm open to plotting.
Using telepathy/mind reading abilities on this character: Sure, just ask first.
Using mind control on this character: Ask me, but I'm open to it.
Notes/Other:
Underground App
Mar. 5th, 2016 02:55 pmPlayer information
Name: Saro
Contact: saro.lynne @ gmail,
sarosaron
Are you 18 or over? Yes
Other characters played: None.
Character information
Name: Natasha Romanoff
Age: 78 (appears to be in her mid twenties)
Date of Birth: 22 November, 1938
Canon: MCU
Species: Vampire—Canon touches on Natasha’s sense of guilt for her past, the debt she owes Clint Barton for giving her the chance to go straight, and her insecurity that she can’t overcome her background. Being a vampire would give her the chance to explore a lot of the same themes and emotional beats in a new context.
Role: Natasha would look for a position in the Redbright Institute’s Outreach Group, with a focus on enforcing secrecy regarding supernatural society and protecting humans from supernatural predation.
Rank: 1-2
Background:Natasha was born in Stalingrad in 1938 and as a result her earliest memories were of the stress and insecurity of WWII. Her parents both died in the war, leading to her being shuffled around between grandparents and great aunts, until she finally ended up a ward of the state.
In the orphanages, Natasha was recognized for her potential, mostly because of repeated disciplinary problems ranging from stealing to fighting, to running away on more than one occasion to scrap out a living on the street until she was eventually found and hauled back. Through her actions, she revealed that she was crafty, motivated and bold. A few days after a particularly daring escape attempt that lead to her stealing the gun off a police officer and injuring him, a woman came to claim Natasha for a program meant to mold young women into KGB operatives, and Natasha traded orphanages for boarding schools and training facilities.
Natasha took to her new trajectory well. She wasn’t particularly patriotic, but she was very, very good at what her mentors wanted her to do, and she thrived in challenging environment. Eventually, she learned to thrive on the structure as well. By the time she took her place as an agent, she had earned the reputation of being the top student in her program. That distinction continued into her new career, and may have one day made her among the KGB’s premiere agents, if her life hadn’t taken another sharp detour.
It wasn’t a coincidence that Moscow’s most influential vampire nest took notice of her; more than one Russian regime had had ties with their bloodline, and the Communist Party was no exception. In exchange for their support, the nest was supplied with a steady stream of blood donors in the form of political dissidents as well as access to the occasional special recruit. In 1961, Natasha was loaned to the Moscow nest as a human servant. In 1964, the nest officially inducted her into their number and she was sired by one of the nest’s commanders. After years of grooming and a history of feeding, Natasha’s bond with her sire was intense, instilling an instinctive loyalty in her and creating an emotional connection unlike anything she’d experienced before. It’s at this point, that she would recognize herself as being the happiest, first while her sire helped her to adapt to her new life and then working alongside him to serve the nest and, when called upon, the USSR.
That period came to an abrupt end in 1969, when Natasha’s sire was killed by a hunter (rumor suggested with inside help from a political rival, though the connection was never confirmed). The loss of her sire hit Natasha hard—much harder than she liked to admit. She fell back on her KGB training and almost overnight, she began detaching herself from her own sentiment, becoming both more reserved and more ruthless. The next twenty-ish years were, for Natasha, a slow decent into useful apathy that was the result of her withdrawal. Even unnecessary violence began to feel like an excess, one that she avoided. This change, in turn, made her an even more valuable weapon to nest and country. On missions she was both remorseless and effective, and politically she had no ambitions.
Within the nest, she engaged with her peers superficially. While she was emotionally unavailable, she went through the motions: flirting, navigating political ploys, and feeding. Feeding became one of her only interactions with humans. Because of the vampires’ relative position of comfort in Soviet Russia, there was never much incentive or pressure not to hurt or kill the people that she fed on, and even during her time with her sire, she was rarely encouraged to hold back when feeding. While she didn’t actively seek to hurt or kill her victims, she also didn’t worry about not hurting them either. It became easy to view humans as prey.
Then the USSR fell. Suddenly the nest no longer had a secure ally in the new regime, society around them was in upheaval, and the Cold War was over. The Moscow nest was forced to act as a free agent now, partnered with people who would have been beneath them before. In this environment, Natasha found herself growing restless. More and more the jobs she was given struck her as unnecessary. She started to resemble the girl she’d been in the late 40s, rebelling, running off on her own for days at a time without disclosing where she was going, picking fights rather than deflecting conflict civilly. Most importantly, she found herself actually pushing back politically against the what she viewed as the nest decaying and spiraling out of control.
Recently a human hunter brought on by one of Natasha’s rivals within the nest to kill her finally brought the situation to a head. He stalked her for weeks, watching her moves, and when the time came to take the shot something stopped him. He told her he’d thought he was doing the right thing by taking the contract and helping the nest wipe itself out; now he thought he’d had it wrong. Something he’d seen in her convinced him that she wasn’t evil.
For his failure to complete his mission, he would have been killed if Natasha hadn’t stepped in to protect him by killing the other vampire. In the aftermath, she fled Moscow for London, where she is currently attempting to go straight.
Personality: Natasha Romanoff is a woman who had to learn to adapt at a young age, and as a result she can superficially seem like a chameleon. The way that she presents herself changes constantly based on the needs of the moment—she puts on different colors based on the needs of the moment. She can be outgoing and flirtatious, or she be intimidatingly stoic. She can thrive on structure, in a hierarchal system, or she can be rebellious. Depending on the situation, she can seem professional or informal. She invents new personas easily, until it can seem like she’s a subtly different person for everyone she meets.
However, she does have a strong core personality underneath.
She’s smart. She’s strategic. She’s self-contained in a way that tends to make her reserved when it comes to her emotions and past. She’s observant, good at reading people and a good judge of character. She’s competent and she values competence. She’s a pragmatist and pushes herself to be as realistic and unbiased as possible in her decision making. She doesn’t shy away from hard choices, and she accepts the fact that accomplishing anything (even just staying alive) will usually mean making compromises and sacrifices.
At heart Natasha is a survivor. Much of her personality is shaped by that, if it doesn’t spring from it directly. At each stage of her life, she’s been forced by circumstances to evolve, and at each stage she’s become a person who can thrive in her present situation. When that person stopped being adaptive, she learned to shed the old identity while retaining the pieces of it that are still useful.
While this adaptivity has kept Natasha alive and even successful for the better part of a century, it’s not without a price. Natasha sometimes struggles with who she’s become, and what she’s lost. While she can change, there’s a degree to which she can’t go back. She can’t undo becoming a pragmatist. She can try to stop killing, but she can never go back to being a person who hasn’t killed often and easily. She can’t stop being a vampire.
This leads to internal conflict for her, because on some level she’s also a person with a strong impulse to do the right thing. However the changes, lessons and compromises that she’s made over the decades as part of her evolution have left her with a pretty faulty moral compass. She’s so used to ignoring or not trusting her own feelings on right and wrong that it’s become hard for her to even know what her conscience is saying.
In some ways, this accounts for her preference for structure. It’s easier for her to let other people take the lead and provide a moral vision when she doesn’t feel like she can trust her own instincts on the matter. First the KGB and then her nest provided her with direction and gave her the sense of serving something bigger than herself, with better goals. She felt like she was taking care of her country and her family.
When her faith in country and nest deteriorated, she looked for and found other outside influences that better seemed to match her own, muddled impulses, which it what inspired her first to connect with the hunter who inspired her to try to go straight, and then, after she fled to London, to seek out the Redbright Institute.
Powers & Possessions: By default, Natasha isn’t especially powerful for a vampire her age. She’s never sired another vampire, so she hasn’t developed the associated powers. What makes her intimidating is that her training and skill enable her to utilize the powers she does have incredibly effectively; KGB training doesn’t make her any faster or stronger, though.
She’s currently trying to live on animal blood, which weakens her further. This situation may or may not last long depending on how things develop IC.
When Natasha fled Moscow, she left with a duffel containing:
Two Glock 26 pistols & rounds
One Soviet issue combat knife
A substantial amount of cash
Samples:
Test drive top level.
And one more.
Name: Saro
Contact: saro.lynne @ gmail,
Are you 18 or over? Yes
Other characters played: None.
Character information
Name: Natasha Romanoff
Age: 78 (appears to be in her mid twenties)
Date of Birth: 22 November, 1938
Canon: MCU
Species: Vampire—Canon touches on Natasha’s sense of guilt for her past, the debt she owes Clint Barton for giving her the chance to go straight, and her insecurity that she can’t overcome her background. Being a vampire would give her the chance to explore a lot of the same themes and emotional beats in a new context.
Role: Natasha would look for a position in the Redbright Institute’s Outreach Group, with a focus on enforcing secrecy regarding supernatural society and protecting humans from supernatural predation.
Rank: 1-2
Background:Natasha was born in Stalingrad in 1938 and as a result her earliest memories were of the stress and insecurity of WWII. Her parents both died in the war, leading to her being shuffled around between grandparents and great aunts, until she finally ended up a ward of the state.
In the orphanages, Natasha was recognized for her potential, mostly because of repeated disciplinary problems ranging from stealing to fighting, to running away on more than one occasion to scrap out a living on the street until she was eventually found and hauled back. Through her actions, she revealed that she was crafty, motivated and bold. A few days after a particularly daring escape attempt that lead to her stealing the gun off a police officer and injuring him, a woman came to claim Natasha for a program meant to mold young women into KGB operatives, and Natasha traded orphanages for boarding schools and training facilities.
Natasha took to her new trajectory well. She wasn’t particularly patriotic, but she was very, very good at what her mentors wanted her to do, and she thrived in challenging environment. Eventually, she learned to thrive on the structure as well. By the time she took her place as an agent, she had earned the reputation of being the top student in her program. That distinction continued into her new career, and may have one day made her among the KGB’s premiere agents, if her life hadn’t taken another sharp detour.
It wasn’t a coincidence that Moscow’s most influential vampire nest took notice of her; more than one Russian regime had had ties with their bloodline, and the Communist Party was no exception. In exchange for their support, the nest was supplied with a steady stream of blood donors in the form of political dissidents as well as access to the occasional special recruit. In 1961, Natasha was loaned to the Moscow nest as a human servant. In 1964, the nest officially inducted her into their number and she was sired by one of the nest’s commanders. After years of grooming and a history of feeding, Natasha’s bond with her sire was intense, instilling an instinctive loyalty in her and creating an emotional connection unlike anything she’d experienced before. It’s at this point, that she would recognize herself as being the happiest, first while her sire helped her to adapt to her new life and then working alongside him to serve the nest and, when called upon, the USSR.
That period came to an abrupt end in 1969, when Natasha’s sire was killed by a hunter (rumor suggested with inside help from a political rival, though the connection was never confirmed). The loss of her sire hit Natasha hard—much harder than she liked to admit. She fell back on her KGB training and almost overnight, she began detaching herself from her own sentiment, becoming both more reserved and more ruthless. The next twenty-ish years were, for Natasha, a slow decent into useful apathy that was the result of her withdrawal. Even unnecessary violence began to feel like an excess, one that she avoided. This change, in turn, made her an even more valuable weapon to nest and country. On missions she was both remorseless and effective, and politically she had no ambitions.
Within the nest, she engaged with her peers superficially. While she was emotionally unavailable, she went through the motions: flirting, navigating political ploys, and feeding. Feeding became one of her only interactions with humans. Because of the vampires’ relative position of comfort in Soviet Russia, there was never much incentive or pressure not to hurt or kill the people that she fed on, and even during her time with her sire, she was rarely encouraged to hold back when feeding. While she didn’t actively seek to hurt or kill her victims, she also didn’t worry about not hurting them either. It became easy to view humans as prey.
Then the USSR fell. Suddenly the nest no longer had a secure ally in the new regime, society around them was in upheaval, and the Cold War was over. The Moscow nest was forced to act as a free agent now, partnered with people who would have been beneath them before. In this environment, Natasha found herself growing restless. More and more the jobs she was given struck her as unnecessary. She started to resemble the girl she’d been in the late 40s, rebelling, running off on her own for days at a time without disclosing where she was going, picking fights rather than deflecting conflict civilly. Most importantly, she found herself actually pushing back politically against the what she viewed as the nest decaying and spiraling out of control.
Recently a human hunter brought on by one of Natasha’s rivals within the nest to kill her finally brought the situation to a head. He stalked her for weeks, watching her moves, and when the time came to take the shot something stopped him. He told her he’d thought he was doing the right thing by taking the contract and helping the nest wipe itself out; now he thought he’d had it wrong. Something he’d seen in her convinced him that she wasn’t evil.
For his failure to complete his mission, he would have been killed if Natasha hadn’t stepped in to protect him by killing the other vampire. In the aftermath, she fled Moscow for London, where she is currently attempting to go straight.
Personality: Natasha Romanoff is a woman who had to learn to adapt at a young age, and as a result she can superficially seem like a chameleon. The way that she presents herself changes constantly based on the needs of the moment—she puts on different colors based on the needs of the moment. She can be outgoing and flirtatious, or she be intimidatingly stoic. She can thrive on structure, in a hierarchal system, or she can be rebellious. Depending on the situation, she can seem professional or informal. She invents new personas easily, until it can seem like she’s a subtly different person for everyone she meets.
However, she does have a strong core personality underneath.
She’s smart. She’s strategic. She’s self-contained in a way that tends to make her reserved when it comes to her emotions and past. She’s observant, good at reading people and a good judge of character. She’s competent and she values competence. She’s a pragmatist and pushes herself to be as realistic and unbiased as possible in her decision making. She doesn’t shy away from hard choices, and she accepts the fact that accomplishing anything (even just staying alive) will usually mean making compromises and sacrifices.
At heart Natasha is a survivor. Much of her personality is shaped by that, if it doesn’t spring from it directly. At each stage of her life, she’s been forced by circumstances to evolve, and at each stage she’s become a person who can thrive in her present situation. When that person stopped being adaptive, she learned to shed the old identity while retaining the pieces of it that are still useful.
While this adaptivity has kept Natasha alive and even successful for the better part of a century, it’s not without a price. Natasha sometimes struggles with who she’s become, and what she’s lost. While she can change, there’s a degree to which she can’t go back. She can’t undo becoming a pragmatist. She can try to stop killing, but she can never go back to being a person who hasn’t killed often and easily. She can’t stop being a vampire.
This leads to internal conflict for her, because on some level she’s also a person with a strong impulse to do the right thing. However the changes, lessons and compromises that she’s made over the decades as part of her evolution have left her with a pretty faulty moral compass. She’s so used to ignoring or not trusting her own feelings on right and wrong that it’s become hard for her to even know what her conscience is saying.
In some ways, this accounts for her preference for structure. It’s easier for her to let other people take the lead and provide a moral vision when she doesn’t feel like she can trust her own instincts on the matter. First the KGB and then her nest provided her with direction and gave her the sense of serving something bigger than herself, with better goals. She felt like she was taking care of her country and her family.
When her faith in country and nest deteriorated, she looked for and found other outside influences that better seemed to match her own, muddled impulses, which it what inspired her first to connect with the hunter who inspired her to try to go straight, and then, after she fled to London, to seek out the Redbright Institute.
Powers & Possessions: By default, Natasha isn’t especially powerful for a vampire her age. She’s never sired another vampire, so she hasn’t developed the associated powers. What makes her intimidating is that her training and skill enable her to utilize the powers she does have incredibly effectively; KGB training doesn’t make her any faster or stronger, though.
She’s currently trying to live on animal blood, which weakens her further. This situation may or may not last long depending on how things develop IC.
When Natasha fled Moscow, she left with a duffel containing:
Two Glock 26 pistols & rounds
One Soviet issue combat knife
A substantial amount of cash
Samples:
Test drive top level.
And one more.
[It takes less than two hours to be on a train leaving Budapest, bound for a transfer in Munich before heading for London. From there, she supposed her unexpected "rescuer" would be able to arrange an extraction. Her handlers—now former handlers—had fewer resources out there than they had in Hungary or Germany. It's a ten hour trip with a sleeper car, and leaving just before midnight. And that was before they switched trains.
Natasha tries not to think too much about what that means until after they're safely in motion. She's already committed to this course of action, and it would be pointless to undermine it with worry.
Once they're underway, her situation weighs more and more heavily on her mind.
She sits quietly, drawn in on herself for the first part of their trip. Two things nag at her. The first is the hunger. Bagged blood helped, took the edge off, but she was still committing herself to being shut in with a warm, living human for the duration of their trip.
The second is sunrise, and before long she's counting the hours and minutes until dawn. She's not as weak to sunlight as some of the assets she's heard of. Photosensitive, but not to the degree where she's likely die of it unless she's staked out for prolonged exposure. That doesn't mean she's not vulnerable, though. Staying awake once the sun is up is always a challenge, meaning at best she'll be slow. At worst, she won't be able to stay awake at all.
Trust didn't come easy to Natasha, neither giving nor receiving, but here she was.]
Natasha tries not to think too much about what that means until after they're safely in motion. She's already committed to this course of action, and it would be pointless to undermine it with worry.
Once they're underway, her situation weighs more and more heavily on her mind.
She sits quietly, drawn in on herself for the first part of their trip. Two things nag at her. The first is the hunger. Bagged blood helped, took the edge off, but she was still committing herself to being shut in with a warm, living human for the duration of their trip.
The second is sunrise, and before long she's counting the hours and minutes until dawn. She's not as weak to sunlight as some of the assets she's heard of. Photosensitive, but not to the degree where she's likely die of it unless she's staked out for prolonged exposure. That doesn't mean she's not vulnerable, though. Staying awake once the sun is up is always a challenge, meaning at best she'll be slow. At worst, she won't be able to stay awake at all.
Trust didn't come easy to Natasha, neither giving nor receiving, but here she was.]
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Feb. 2nd, 2015 09:23 amName Natasha Romanoff
Rank Knight
Living quarters Clubs
Silver Currently poor
Age Looks around 30, actual age significantly older due to Cold War origin.
Height Scarlett Johansson in wedges.
Build Scarlett Johansson in a catsuit.
Hair Scarlett Johansson with a red dye job.
Eyes Vampire Scarlett Johansson... which is to say blue/green, but sometimes dark with red pupils depending on lighting and emotional state.
Unusual features
Natasha is pretty vampiric by the time she reaches court, which can lead to her looking pale and hollow around the eyes, especially in strong lighting. Her fangs, even descended, are fairly subtle. She's not yet undead, if that's a distinction that can be made, but her current vitals are strongly suppressed. Breathing and heartbeat are very sporadic and slow, and weak when they happen. She runs cool, but not cold. For people who sense that kind of thing, she's definitely some kind of vampire, or may ping as something like a half vampire/living vampire/dhampir, depending on how sensitive the observer is and their frame of reference.
Extra Notes
The Romanian Solution & Red Russian are fanfics set in the same AU. Natasha in Court comes from the future of the same AU, just after AoU. I'll add more here in the future.
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Known Objectives
Feeding.
Performance/showing off.
Oral sex (giving/receiving.)
Delayed gratification (giving/receiving).
Talking dirty.
Walling.
Exhaustion.
Unknown Objectives
Bats!
Telling difficult truths/secrets.
Self-control.
Trust (giving and receiving).
Fighting -> makingout/sex.
Guns.
more tba
Rank Knight
Living quarters Clubs
Silver Currently poor
Age Looks around 30, actual age significantly older due to Cold War origin.
Height Scarlett Johansson in wedges.
Build Scarlett Johansson in a catsuit.
Hair Scarlett Johansson with a red dye job.
Eyes Vampire Scarlett Johansson... which is to say blue/green, but sometimes dark with red pupils depending on lighting and emotional state.
Unusual features
Natasha is pretty vampiric by the time she reaches court, which can lead to her looking pale and hollow around the eyes, especially in strong lighting. Her fangs, even descended, are fairly subtle. She's not yet undead, if that's a distinction that can be made, but her current vitals are strongly suppressed. Breathing and heartbeat are very sporadic and slow, and weak when they happen. She runs cool, but not cold. For people who sense that kind of thing, she's definitely some kind of vampire, or may ping as something like a half vampire/living vampire/dhampir, depending on how sensitive the observer is and their frame of reference.
Extra Notes
The Romanian Solution & Red Russian are fanfics set in the same AU. Natasha in Court comes from the future of the same AU, just after AoU. I'll add more here in the future.
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Known Objectives
Feeding.
Performance/showing off.
Oral sex (giving/receiving.)
Delayed gratification (giving/receiving).
Talking dirty.
Walling.
Exhaustion.
Unknown Objectives
Bats!
Telling difficult truths/secrets.
Self-control.
Trust (giving and receiving).
Fighting -> makingout/sex.
Guns.
more tba
Trivial Neutral: Action figures. (AoS, informed/headcanon)
Short Description: Avengers action figures exist, after the incident in New York. We see them at the beginning of Agents of SHIELD. There's a Black Widow action figure. Headcanon, Natasha is bemused by the fact she's an action figure.
What She Gains:
+This doesn't seem appropriate for a spy and assassin.
Form Of: Necco wafer.
Short Description: Avengers action figures exist, after the incident in New York. We see them at the beginning of Agents of SHIELD. There's a Black Widow action figure. Headcanon, Natasha is bemused by the fact she's an action figure.
What She Gains:
+This doesn't seem appropriate for a spy and assassin.
Form Of: Necco wafer.